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I hate meetings. I hate High Power. I hate anyone who has a program.. 
To all who come in contact with me 
I wish you death and I wish you suffering...
Allow me to introduce myself. 
I am the disease of addiction-alcoholism,
drugs, eating disorders, gambling etc. 
I am cunning, baffling. and powerful. 
That's ME! 
I have killed millions, and I am pleased. 
I love to catch you with the element of surprise.
I love pretending I am your friend and lover. 
I have given you comfort, have I not? 

Wasn't I there when you were lonely? 
When you wanted to die, 
didn't you call me? 
Wasn't I always there?
 I love to make you hurt. I love to make you cry .
Better yet, I love when I make you so numb you can neither hurt or cry
 you can't feel anything at all.
This is true glory.
 I give you instant gratification and all I ask of 
you is long term suffering.
I've always been there for you. 
When things were going
right in your life, you invited me.
You said you didn't deserve these good things,
 and I
was the only one who would agree with you
Together we were able to destroy all
things good in your life.
People don't take me seriously. 
They take strokes seriously, heart attacks
serious1y, even diabetes they take seriously.
Fools that they are, 
they don't know that without my help 
these things would not be made possible.
I am such a hated disease, and yet I do not come uninvited.
You choose to have me.
So many have chosen me over reality, peace, and serenity-
More than you hate me,
 I hate all of you who have a 12 Step Program. 
Your Program, your meetings, your Higher Power,
 all weaken me and don't allow me to 
function in the manner I am accustomed to. 
Now I must lie here quietly. 
You don't see me,
 but I am growing bigger than ever. 
When you only exist, I may live.
 When you live, I only exist. 
But I am here and until we meet again,
IF we meet again -
I wish you continued death and suffering!

I got this from the rehab I speak at.
 One of the counselors gave it to me
to post on my site. I really like it.
IT says a lot and I just wanted to share it with you.
God Bless and peace to all
ds_avalon 10/8/01